Captain's log

• 2025/04/18 - I'm considering starting an articles/blogposts section and keeping this part only for life/site updates. I could review things I read/watch, and talk about things happening in the world.



• 2025/04/10 - I made a Shimeji! You can see it on my art page. Also I'm starting to feel like I'm being noticably weird and off-putting with my special interest stuff and it's making it harder to enjoy. I feel like people are beginning to judge me despite actually having proof of the contrary. It's annoying. I should be studying on break since I have a few exams next week. This semester isn't good for me in terms of studying.



• 2025/04/07 - What does my first university spring break consist of? That's right, reading 30 year old comics. My parents are in Spain until tomorrow evening so I have a fair bit of time on my hands. As of yesterday i'm caught up to issue 22 of New warriors. It's got certain problematic elements for sure, but the characters have pretty good chemistry with each other, which surpisingly extends to the romantic pairings. I especially didn't expect Namorita and Nova to work out, (in part because I knew he was gonna be annoying) I thought it would be forced, but no, they're both just insane in the same direction.
  
  The series has been on my radar since 2023, when i read 70's guardians of the galaxy. In that, I discovered a character called Vance Astrovik, who founded that version of the team in the year 3000, and eventually travelled back to change the timeline so his younger self never get cryogenically frozen and sent to space. This younger self is a member of the New Warriors, and I was curious about him before I knew about the character I actually ended up reading this for. Anyway he is queer as fuck. I love the versatility of mutants as a metaphore. Among other things, to anyone who isn't totally ignorant about homo/transphobia, his dad's behaviour is clearly a reference to the treatment of queer kids in abusive homes. (The guy makes Nova's dad look like a saint - Rich's perspective check should have been a conversation with his friend, not just like, seeing a poor black family. Anyway. Problematic elements, as I said.) As of issue 22 there's also a weird conspiracy thing going on with Night Trasher's immediate social circle which is also interesting. Yakuza, Money laundering, weird cult pacts formed in the jungles of cambodia, estranged families, ect. It sounds good but I honestly prefer the mundane drama.



• 2025/03/30 - Holy shit I'm home. I left with the student union people on thrusday, we spent a teambuilding weekend at a campsite owned by the university. It had no heating and it was bitterly cold and I got for too drunk two nights out of three - But we cooked, played board games, and it was overall a lot of fun. Two of them are birders, they tried to catch a duck to ring it but sadly failed. The drive back home consisted of 5 college girls in a beatup white car full of empty bottles (we wanted to find a place to recycle them) blasting folk music. Probably a strange sight. A team got built for sure. I mean they already know each other, but i'm joining the pre-existing team now. :)
  
  Also Nintendo Direct happened! I don't know much of the games featured but I'm super excited for Marvel Cosmic Invasion. Look at Nova with that long hair. Even better, LOOK AT PHYLA-VELL!! My girl is out of the basement for the first time since 2010 ♡♡♡ (if we disregard her alternate universe version, I'm still a bit on the fence about her.)
  
  Come meow in my guestbook if you wanna, two people have done it so far. You might also get a kaomoji


• 2025/03/15 - Heyy it's revolution of 1948 day. Started today by getting so fucking pissed off on the tram. Three grown ass ticket inspectors were yelling at one poor asian student who had trouble understanding what they were telling her to do. I nearly got all whitekaren at them because what the fuck do they think they're doing. After that I went home and listened to the PM's speech where he called all of his political opponents stinkbugs. (think like, "Roach" in terms of offense and fascist connotations) So YEAH I'm deeply pissed off today. I read the latest issue of Phoenix (2024) - I'm pretty ambivalent towards this series and I'm really only reading for Nova and Rocket, but actually I'm interested in where this goes now! ALSO! IMPERIAL ART DROPPED! 70's inspired Starlord!! Nova is there! Dr. Strange is there!! holy shit!!


• 2025/03/13 - I would be getting drunk on friday but no one wants to come with me so i guess I won't. Yesterday I stumbled into a seminar full of teachers and was invited to come in by the teacher that I had been looking for. I listened to a bunch of biologists discuss the plant life of the high tatras with an old mountain climber/prolific author for an hour. Interesting stuff. We finally dissected worms in animal anatomy lab yesterday too - poor canadian nightcrawlers. You were sacrificed for a good cause.
  
  I also began writing my first article for the university magazine! No one reads it but the fact that I got this opportunity is already cool. You may also notice that I made my sketchbook on the "my art" page look like my actual real life sketchbook.
  And my last chemistry lab is tomorrow!! thank fuck!! !
  
  My social media break/reduction is still going strong. I finished The Brightness Between Us yesterday, It wrecked me hard. Most of it was good. This second part wasn't as good as the first, but I do recommend both. Go read the Darkness Outside us and The Brightness Between us.
  SPOILERS
  I dislike the bit about Yarrow having (ocd) symptoms like mine but actually acting on his "intrustive thoughts" - that is NOT how those work. In the end they "fix" him with nanobot surgery because his "insanity" was caused by a saboteur back on earth who modified the zygotes on the spaceship to "either be unviable or produce too much testosterone" ... this was him producing too much T, apparently. God. Anyway I loved the rest of the book. The original pair's fate was as tragic as the first book, while literally everything works out for the Minerva gang in the year 32k. But oh well, the originals were dead from the start.
  I started reading The Loneliest Girl In The Universe today since a critique of TDOA mentions it and I'm a sucker for tragic sci-fi apparently. Will update!!


• 2025/03/12 - If tomorrow i find out i don't have cancer i'm going to get drunk on friday.


• 2025/03/09 - A year and a day ago I had surgery for a huge burst ovarian cyst. yayy. happy anniversarry. This time last year I has just been let home and I still barely able to move my upper body from laparoscopy gases and my bf asked me if i wanted to go to him to a ball the next day. ...
  
  Anyway my scars haven't faded, is it too late for silicon gel?


• 2025/03/08 -I'M IN THE STUDENT COUNCIL!! I missed the call from the environmental council's president at almost 6pm, I called her back at nearly 8pm, thankfully she was ok with it. I still don't know what I was thinking when applying, but since they think I'm good enough I will put as much effort into it as possible! :) I'm also trying to reduce my social media use rn, since it's been sparking way less joy than it used to.
  
  Chemistry lab yesterday drained me emotionally and physically, i got home after 11pm and very much overreacted to the last of my plants dying over the week i spent away. (my mother says she watered it and yeah, the pot is soaked - i think she overwatered it..... One's been dying each week since the semester started.) Not my best moment by far. other than that I'm hoping to pull myself together, build self-esteem, ect. this spring, and it's been going well. i think. I have two doctor's appointments next week about a medical issue I've been having. Hopefully we can confirm it's not serious and even fix it. That would be amazing. Chem lab will also end next week, and I'll attend my first council meeting - I'm looking forwards to one very good week if it all goes right!


• 2025/03/05 - ACTUAL ODESSY OF A DAY! Today I got up at 8, already feeling like shit so I did a lil eyeliner to make myself feel better. It worked momentarily. My first class at 12, organic chemsitry, went fine. That was the last normal thing to happen. After that I ran to Biochemisry, and my classmates and i sat there for fifteen minutes waiting for the teacher to show up before I realsied that wait, didn't he say that we'll de doing this class on thursday? So we all left.
  
  I went back up to the dorm to charge my phone as any female born after 1993 is known to do. At 4pm I attended my second class of the day, LITERALLY the most boring thing ever, by the end i was sweating, nearly crying, and on the verge of hitting the guy next to me for breathing too loud. Thankfully we were relased before that came to pass.
  
  By then i was, of course, late for my final class, which I didn't even know where to find, because I applied to it late. Now, this teacher has been known to vanish occasionally, so i emailed him yesterday to ask if he'll be in today. He said he will be. I confidently walked up to the receptionist asking where the room written in my timetable is. He said "I swear I'm not mentally disabled but i can't help you." (insane sentence) So i walked to a different building, same story, receptionst has no idea, tells me to go to the teacher's office to ask him directly.
  
  My "saving grace" was that last week I asked a different teacher if she knows where that room is, and she said a guy's name that the letters in my timetable apparently stand for. Nothing else in her explanation made sense or helped, though. I looked up that guy's name with "seminar" written after it, and found a facebook post from 2019 that DID have a room number! Why not put the room number in my timetable?
  
  Anyway i walk up, open the door, and, It is my plant phylogeny teacher from last semester !! Not the guy I was looking for!! He's like "well the professor is in the other room cooking so it's safe to say he forgot." Then we go to the other room and he's not there. Sweet fucking christ.
  
  Anyway i went home and spoke to my bf after this. I cancelled our "date" (he'd have invited others too, and those others couldnt make it either) partially because I'm tired and partially wanted to do laudry.
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  Okay to the washing machine broke. Nice.
  I made oatmeal with a girl cooking spaggethi to celebrate that.
  Then I got a message from a classmate, saying that she needs an eraser and am I close to my dorm rn. We are in different dorms of course so I was surpised. We both went down to the main university building, looked for each other for a good ten minutes, and then I gave her my eraser. She's apparently drawing, and I'm very curious to see the result! This last one was fun but things have got to stop happening for like a week. My roommate just came home and asked if I'll be going out and I was like !!! Sure hope not!!!.
  
  (Should I be saying professor instead of teacher? We always say teacher so professor sounds a bit corny to me)


• 2025/03/02 - Hello! I just came back from the hearing about joining the student council. I think it went well! There were like ten people sitting in a half circle in front of me, recording for other members, I was so nervous. I'm expecting that they'll have me writing articles for the university's magazine if they decide they want me on the team. That sounds good to me, actually! It's a magazine our university has been running since the late 50's apparently, though I haven't heard of it. Sadly it no longer appears in print which is a shame. They also asked about the fact that i put HTML and CSS on my resume, i just told them my website is about sci-fi stories and inside jokes with friends and they laughed. <= Choosing to believe that's good.
  
  Anyway, I will probably fail chemistry if the test I did last week also turns out to be below 50%. So that sucks, especially since I enjoyed last week's practice, I even knew the math for it. Oh, well. I might get to do it twice.
  Also I am working on reducing my social media time, as you may see from my blog's pinned post if you go there. I started reading The Brightness Inside Us, the sequel to The Darkness Outside Us, one of my favourite books. It has yet to capture me the same way, but to be fair the first one took a while as well. I do dislike the fact that it's another story where the previous book's protagonists are miserable parents, but to be honest? It's in character.
  
  I trust Eliot Schrefer to have written yet another great book and I'm aware of my own impatience. I'm also very excited for the movie adaptation that apparently Elliot Page is working on! What an El(l)iot heavy story. With this story having gotten its sequel this soon after I read the first book, and a comic featuring Nova (Imperial - with the tagline "nature abhors a vacuum" possibly about the nova corps?!) being announced, I am hoping to continue this streak of luck and also hear more about Trigun Stargaze soon. The obsession is still going strong, but even yeast can only survive for so long without without sugar. And baby? This wine is fermenting DRY.
  
  Anyway, I gotta go practice chemistry and email a teacher. Bye kids!


• 2025/03/02 - I don't even know what I did all day? I just edited minor stuff. Also I fully updated my tumblr custom theme so it's no longer ugly.


• 2025/03/01 - Spring is upon us! Also, if you haven't noticed, it is the end of an era. I replaced my crudely edited sona with a full body drawing that I put slightly more effort into. I'm pretty sure this is considered a site doll? Also this one is NOT self-aware like the last one was. I also did some formatting and added a section dedicated to web development links I've gathered. I'm planning on doing a page detailing my politics, since I recently went off on my blog in a way that could be the rough draft for a longer explanation of what I want the world to look like. No promises that it'll be quick, I'm planning on citing sources.


• 2025/02/26 - ^Hellooo _homestuck ^webring!!! Thank you Micro from Blinkies-net for adding me! :) I shot out of bed like a lunatic when i saw the email. I formatted the widget a little to fit into the little box properly, but nothing major. I also heard back from the student council yesterday evening, they're saying they're interested in working with me and that I should fill out a survey and go in for an interview next week. Well, we'll see if anything comes of this! Still worried about chemistry, but I embroidered a kitten peeking out of my labcoat's pocket which will make everything better!


• 2025/02/24 - As I was modifying my recipes page I came to the startling realisation that I was scared of being seen as a right wing lunatic for using hungarian embroidery as the background. Isn't that nuts? That I feel like i can't engage with my own culture? A few years ago my father would urge me to do so, telling me to find a group of people practicing any tradition I like and join them, but even then I was scared of only meeting hateful people there, so I didn't look. Then he took me to a festival based on a reconstruction of pre-settlement hungarian culture, and I enjoyed it a lot, until a speaker began to talk about protecting traditional family values.
  Just a few days ago, our prime minister talked about banning pride in a speech. I have never been to pride, but it still stings in a way. In an unsurpising "of course you'd fucking say that" way.
  So it's no surpise I wanna leave. Every aspect of Hungary is steeped in pre-fascist (or full blown fascist) bullshit and economically speaking we're the worst off in Europe. I just feel like leaving would further disconnect me from a culture I really want to participate in but already can't.
  Anyway, the cookbook looks pretty cool now! And somehow??? I glitched it so that the navigation box floats gently in??? I didn't do that. I wanted it to turn when hovered over like the table of contents on the side. CSS is like a fairy to me


• 2025/02/23 - Pages should now open in a separate window. Wondering why? Because I turned the naviagation bar into an embedded page like this one! I did it so I don't have to modify it on each page individually when i add/change something. However, unless I made it open every link on a new page, It would have opened links within the tiny embed window, and that's just impractical.



• • 2025/02/22 - _THE ^SUN _IS ^SHINING_!! We're aaaalmost in spring!! I like being alive again!
  I decided to go all in and turn this into a little diary instead of an updates box. It'll still be the same thing, Just titled more accurately.
  I had my first chemistry lab yesterday... Sucks every single type of genitalia, but I will have to survive it. 4-8pm on a friday. I'll just have to lock the fuck in and I'll pass.
  I also have another set of crystals coming in the mail, idk if I'll be able to go pick them up from my old school when they arrive because of my tight schedule. I'm taking a Body Arts (fancy yoga) course and applied to my university's student council's environmental branch, (they sent emails to the whole university - I have very little chance of getting chosen) so I have a lot of things going on rn. I'm like, prey animal levels of scared rn but I made it out of last semester okay.
  
  Me looking terribly tired but kinda cool in a labcoat yesterday. ->

  

As for this site, well, nothing major since my last update. I made a CSSBattle account and have a 3 day streak going. My ex roommate is absolutely stressed out by the fact that I do css *willingly* when she's a computer science student and she absolutely loaths it. It's funny, I get why she'd always show me her horrific maths things now. I organised my dashboard, which is invisible to you but a major update for me. I applied t join s homestuck webring, successfully called the creator 'a member of it' in the email and only realised too late. Oh, well.


• 2025/02/18 - Just past midnight, I could have written 17 as well. - Started the semester today. Still scared shitless, and i have to go to the dentist but idk when i have the time for it. Today I got new stamps, modified 'my art' a bit, added a poll, and started reworking my Trigun page (linked at Stories I like - man i need a sitemap)


• 2025/02/15 - The last few days have been rough, but I managed to update that Misc page. It's called "trinket exhibition" now, check it out! Also, this homepage is starting to look outdated and cluttered, how do we feel about an update?


• 2025/02/12 - Over the last few days i've been working on Naomi mostly. She should have an actual puzzle now. Today i updated my recipes page (it's ugly but it gets the job done) and the pets page that was, let's face it, ugly. I also finally got my shit together and finished the poncho for my Livio (from trigun) plushie after a weeks long break. Also yesterday I redid the maths exam I failed in part due to sewing plushies instead of studying.


• 2025/02/7 - improved the brain minigame on the stories page, made some elements on the main page tilt when you hover over them. I also started a complete reowrk of the collections (misc) page but you still see the old version if you go there.


• 2025/01/09 - Happy new year!! I spent New years Eve with my boyfriend and one of my ex-roommates at a bar themed around video games and other generally popular nerd stuff. We played a board game. I very nearly blacked out from rolling 1 on a d20 challenge where the die decides what drink you get. I won a Marvel pin on a raffle. It was a lot of fun and we will be going back for sure! :) Anyway, as of today I only have one more exam left so of course I fucked around with css instead of studying. I added a paper effect to a fic I wrote back in 2023 - and decided to go ahead and link that fic on my "stories I like" page. Also, hey? what's that light blue box below Chippie?


• 2024/12/19 - Done with most my exams, two or three left. I think I'm doing fine in terms of grades, though my plant anatomy teacher was dissapointed with me. Also, this time it's my physical health that is acting up, but i'll be home until february so i'm hoping it sorts itself out soon. I got back into comics a little. It's a great outlet for toxicity.


• 2024/11/19 - This has quickly become a life updates box rather than a site updates one. Still in university, my first exam season is coming up. I'm in an odd place mentally. My grades aren't too bad, not amazing either. Hopefully I can keep my gpa high enough to keep my scholarship. Anyway, on the My Art page the bookbinding stuff no longer just links to my tumblr, i added a little box that contains all of the links directly on this site


• 2024/09/10 - Officially started university yesterday! Things aren't going bad so far, though i will have to start taking better notes... Still scared of half to death, still trying to figure everything out. My schedule sucks so I couldn't get a job, but maybe that's for the better? I'd rather focus on finding my way this semester. My ocd is acting up again, but that's to be expected when things change around me. that one sucks.
• 2024/08/14 - Over a month since I last updated?? Things have been strange. For one, I got accepted to university and will be majoring in Biology in a whole new city that I only visited occasionally prior to this. I am not much of a math nerd, so this will be difficult but I'll give it my all! I am also in a fresh relationship and trying to figure that one out while being a strange autistic shut in. This month I'm working in a tourist information desk so if you have any questions about what to do around Lake Tisza, ask away. All of this was liveblogged over in my Tumblr btw because I was unsuccessful at making this my main online thing.(tm) No progress on the secret project, it's kinda based on isolation and loneliness and being kissed kinda snapped me out of that headspace lmao
• 2024/07/10 - I was feeling a bit under the weather yesterday, but other than that, over the last few days I've been working on that project. It might be the weirdest thing I've ever done.


• 2024/07/07 - Started a secret project!


• 2024/07/04 - WEBRING TIME!! I just got accepted to the Autists Online Webring. such a good day. historically nothing else has ever occured on this day. Anyway, I literally just woke up and immediately got to setting up the webring widget the moment i saw the e-mail. The design of the "index" link is heavily based on fellow member Cyberdemon's link design, I felt that it fit the rest of the widget flawlessly. (the default is plain black) I'll also put the whole widget somewhere else later, it just doesn't look right currently. Anyway, thanks a lot for having me!! I'm gonna go start my day now.


• 2024/07/03 - Added a download and background painter functionality to the drawing board on the My art page!


• 2024/07/02 - Worked on the My Art page, a little bit on the Home page's mobile look too.


• 2024/06/30 - Made a new header, played with a code optimiser site, and then finally got a decent background as well!


• 2024/06/29 - Added a Gifypet based on one of my family's cats, as well as a decent visitor counter! Starting from 1, because I have no way of knowing how many there have been since I started this site.
  
  Also, moved the navigation into the draggable window, put stamps in its place, and put the buttons to others' pages down into the sidebar!


• 2024/06/28 - made the guestbook into an actual book and put it next to this box! (+minor cosmetic changes)


• 2024/06/26 - After a brief break due to the Érettségi exams, I am back and have embedded my tumblr page instead of just linking to it. Check that out to see more frequent activity from me! I am on there all day every day. Not pround of that.


• 2024/06/06 - added things I collect to my Misc. page, added some javascript effects to the Stories I like pages and the shirnes linked from there.


• 2024/06/03 - remaned "Music I like" to Misc., will add rock collection and other fun stuff there as well (trust the process)


• 2024/05/30 - added this box, rewrote my introduction, changed cursor to diamond pickaxe


• 2024/05/29 - found out i can embed other sites


• 2024/05/28 - added space between elements to divorce my design from the template's